Stubborn?! Me??

It's true.

You know it and I know it.

I. Am. Stubborn.

and I haaaaaate it.

I think I am stubborn in some ways and other's not so much.

I am going to do my very best to explain what I mean here, and you are going to listen to me...

I feel I am stubborn in the way that once I've made up my mind or made a decision, I have a very hard time letting that go. For Example:

I decided to potty train Cody a little early and very randomly.

Then realized it was a hard time in my life to be taking on such a project.

I tried to stop the training, and what happened?

I cried like a baby over what a failure I was....

I decided that when Cody was born I did NOT want him to have a binky.

I hated the thought of toddlers walking around with pacifiers in their mouths that were in my mind waaay to old for them.

So therefore, if I never started him on one, he would never have to wean.

He was 3 weeks old screaming his head off to nurse 24/7 and there I sat on the phone crying to the lactation specialist. She said "well have you tried a pacifier?" to which I said "No, I just don't want him to be 5 years old with a binky..." and she said with some attitude "Then he won't!"....

By the time Cody was 1 year old, binky was gone...

When we bought this house I wanted Cody and Trey to share a room.

It's a 3 bedroom house with a landing/loft, and a 850 sf unfinished basement.

We have room to grow if needed.

But I want a guest bedroom.

So the boys share, and to which isn't going that well.

Some nights are fine, and others I wonder if the waking randomly is due to sharing...

I've had 1 person sleep in that room so far, and it's not like if someone came to stay I couldn't let the boys share for just 1 night, but I made the decision already...

Changing my mind is pretty much in my mind saying that I have failed at the task at hand...

PLUS if they separate I am decorating Trey his own little room...just a side note....

Does anyone else feel this way??

I need to relax before I consider stress a failure as well!

Time for cookies!!