Sorry it's been a while since the last posting. I figured you understood seeing as how I still have a brand new baby and a TODDLER. Well both weren't helping. You see here is the story. I noticed in the hospital it was almost impossible to get Trey to latch on to nurse, even our last day there I had to call the nurse in for help and she couldn't get him latched either but told me not to worry. Finally home from the hospital I was stumped...I would give him his binky (also a trick) get him good and sucking, rip it out, and stuff my boob in. Yes graphic, what do you care. It worked like a charm. I did that for almost a week, but I thought "hey whatever works".
In the beginning I was engorged and tender as expected and that went away. Then this last week I noticed my nips were EXTRA tender. Each feeding would leave me curling my toes. I thought this was odd since I we were past this. I noticed they were raw and never to be touched by anything. Even when I bent down to grab something and boob would move in my bra I wanted to SCREAM. Friday afternoon my visiting teaching companion called to check on me (she is the hpyno birth, and labor and delivery nurse). I told her I was very sore but thought it was normal. She did not think this was normal but I insisted I didn't want help. I know I know, as open as I can be, I do NOT like people seeing my boobs. Even just breastfeeding! A nurse, to help, no thanks...I get weird about her seeing my girls. I sat down for the next feeding, he latched and I yelped in pain, clenched jaw, sweating, I couldn't take it. I pulled him off to discover my nipples were dripping blood. OMG. I called her bawling, went and got a nipple shield, and she said she would come help at the next feeding.
She came over 3 times that day. Just to sit there, help me get him latched properly, help with the soreness, and to talk me through it. She did this ALL WEEKEND. She has 5 kids of her own to worry about, but still took time for me. With her helped we discovered I was suffering from yeast, and got me off sugar and bread right away. I never knew how much sugar I ate. I started taking probiotics, wild orange oil in my water, more water in general. I am MUCH better. Still I have to use the shield.
She was burping him for me and noticed that he is also slightly tongue tied. GREAT. Not terrible, but this is the reason he cannot latch on properly, and that I get so sore. Also this makes for him gulping more air, less milk, and this is why he feels the need to eat constantly. Which is also wearing on me. Today we have an appointment to get the tongue tied looked at and hopefully they will snip the membraine.
It's been a long long few days. I am soooo grateful for Debbie (VTC) and her selflessness. Just to be here whenever I needed. She said she would come at 5 am, she came inbetween classes at church, she came over at 10:30 at night. I would have been screwed without her. Heavenly Father really has blessed me. Also I am grateful that delivery went so smooth. To have a crappy deliver AND nursing to go bad would just push me over the edge.
I just thought maybe you wondered where I am have been and what I was up to. Did you miss me?? I missed you for shizzle.
OH and the time is about here to get my hair done again. I have almost 2.5 inches of roots, it's embarassing. I just try to forget about it. I was thinking about going red brown like Mandy Moore's picture in the middle here.....any suggestions?
Also I need to decide whether or not to cut it, or grow it out. I am at a crossroads with the length. I want it simple because the time I put into it, is long gone. A pony tail is all I do, but a fresh cut would be nice too. Why do I care so much. PSH. Dumb. Leave me a comment with any ideas.